confirming
reality
by Douglas Messerli
Kier Peters The Confirmation (Los Angeles: Sun & Moon Press, 1993)
Kier Peters The Confirmation Vineyard Theatre (as part of the T.W.E.E.D. New
Works Festival) / April 6 and 7, 1994
Almost from the moment in September
1991 when we returned to Jerry Fox’s condominium after the memorial ceremony
for Howard’s mother Rose, I took out pen and paper and began to write the play The Confirmation.
Obviously, Rose’s death—I was close to both of Howard’s
parents—triggered something in me about mothers, grandmothers, daughters, and
sons—although the Midwestern women of the play could not be more different, in
their language and mannerisms, than the Baltimore-raised Rose Fox. The
character’s language, in its aphoristic repetitions, bore traces, however, of
another Baltimorean, Gertrude Stein.
From the moment Mother commanded Grandma to “sit down there nicely and
be out of the way!” (something, given the current situation, I might have
commanded of myself), the women of my play took control of my head and hand,
leading me through a series of incidents over which I seemed to have little
control. Whenever I even attempted to think out some element of plot, the
voices forced me in other directions, so that page after page of the original
manuscript was torn up, lines crossed out.
“What are you doing?” asked Jerry, observing me writing in a seemingly
uncomfortable position at the dining room windowsill.
“Writing,” was all I could mutter, as words tumbled through my fingers
to the little notebook before me. It seemed I could not write fast enough, and
by the time we had returned to Los Angeles a couple of days later, I had
completed a rough draft. Never had I produced a work so painlessly. The only
things that needed alteration, so it appeared, were instances where I had
gotten ahead of my characters’ words and acts.
As I do with all my plays—or, at least, as Kier does—I sent a typed copy
to playwright friend Mac Wellman, who read it with great enthusiasm, ultimately
suggesting its inclusion in the 1994 T.W.E.E.D New York Festival.
Mac also arranged, at an earlier date, a reading at Richard Caliban’s
Cucaracha Theater in New York, a production overseen by Richard’s wife, Mollie
O’Mara, who later directed the Festival production. The wonderful
actress/teacher Nora Dunfee performed in that original reading (there may have
been others of the later cast in the first reading, but I have no memory of who
else performed). I do know that playwrights Wellman, Len Jenkin, and Matthew
Maguire, along with my editor, actress Diana Daves (upon whom I had based, in
part, the character of Mother) were in attendance. The reading went splendidly,
creating a much more absurdly comic effect than the later Festival production.
I had titled the play The
Confirmation because the work concerned a group of figures who were all
attempting to confirm their various visions of reality—visions each at odds
with one another. The outsider to this dysfunctional family, Carmelita, was
also attempting to confirm her position as a member of the family (yes, Carson
McCullers had come to mind in the writing) and to confirm a reality different
from what family members were willing to admit. During the final revision,
moreover, I was watching on television the horrific circus of the confirmation
hearings in October 1991 of Judge Clarence Thomas, accused by his former
co-worker Anita Hill of inappropriate sexual conversations covering everything
from gang rape, the size of porn star Long Dong Silver’s penis, to sexual
intercourse with animals! Who could have made up such a bizarre scenario? To
me, Hill’s painful testimony could be nothing but the truth, and to this day I
am convinced of the incompetence of the conservative Justice of the Supreme Court,
and I must admit, I was taken aback by Joesph Biden’s hurry to push that
nomination through.
Accordingly, I began my play with a quote, representing the two opposing
visions of truth represented by those hearings: Anita Hill’s statement “I felt
that I had to tell the truth,” as against Thomas’s summary of events, “I have
never, in all my life, felt such hurt, such pain, such agony.” To me it seemed
to sum up the idea of truth and consequence. My Sun & Moon Press published
the play in 1993.
Los Angeles, September 17, 2012
Reprinted from USTheater, Opera,
and Performance (September 2012).